Wednesday, July 04, 2007

Home, Work, and the Commute...

All the days lately are the same...
I get told to get out of the bed before the alarm wakes the baby, then I stumble downstairs and snooze on the couch until the last possible moment. I awaken to rush out the door and drive my 30 minutes to the office. Eight hours blur by as I work. Then I drive the 60 minutes home (I love rush hour!) to the wife whose every word drip with anger and hatred. I then proceed to make dinner, jam whatever chores I have time to do. My favorite time of the day is the hour I get to spend with my son. Then I go to bed and try to sleep, waking frequently to the wifes angry tirades and/or insultes. Thank god I only have about 6 hours of sleep to get through each night.
I don't know what happened, I promise it wasn't always like this. We once showed that we loved each other. Now it feels like I am alone. There's no physical or emotional connection between us two. I know I love her.... but does she love me.

She loves me,
She loves me not,
She loves me...
...I hope.